This week a big and heavy piece of my cement armor felt down revealing a bit more of the winner leaving inside of me.
That piece has deployed while I was reading the stories in the “Tools for expanding”. You don’t understand the power of that mastermind until you don’t get in there and observe. I identified myself in so many of the posts after reading them in the quiet of my room, with no one to watch. Or to judge.
Still it was hard to recognize that to myself. Again, what do I pretend not to know?
How many times we find instantly an excuse when we receive a remark!? No matter if we say it out loud or not, our mind is defending itself because all these feelings associated to the fear are exactly the ones that we don’t want to hear. The dirt under the carpet. You pretend they are not there if you don’t “see” them. But just because they make you feel tight, does not mean that you can deny them. You can of course but that does mean that you are hiding the looser inside of you. And by hiding it, you just keep it alive.
Starting from now, I let that looser die in his comfort zone. And the first step I do in this direction is to watch the Fear straight in her eyes.
Who will win?